zindagi lagti hai yun khafa,chaah kar bhi nahi ho pati main juda..
in khayalaton se jo jud rahein hai kuch is kadar...
kar rahein hai yeh katle-aam mera shaamo sehar...
ajeeb si kashm kash,fir rahi hai dar badar...
thaam loon inhe,jala doon inhe...
fir bhi chod jaayengi raakh, hain kuch is kadar besharam...
raahein nahi hai anjaani, par lagta hai darr...
nahi chaahti woh shaam fir laute..leke kaali abra..
khuda ke waaste mat karna darwaaze band..
kahin bikhar na jaye is baar..woh sapno ka mehal..
na juta paoongi fir himmat..na la paoongi fir nayi sehar..
jud rahee hai yeh aawaaz mujhse yunhi is kadar...
suraj jo ujala lata hai, woh jala bhi to deta hai..
mann jo himmat deta hai, woh dehla bhi to deta hai..
baat jo hansaa deti ho, ansoon chalka bhi to deti hai..
jeevan jo banaati hai, wahi mita bhi to deti hai..
sthaayi jab nahi hai kuch,tu kyun hai yeh kashmkash...
kaash! dekh kar aa pati main kuch pal aage..
par kyun uljha rahin hoon main apne jeevan ke dhaage..
pirona hai maalein mein ek ek moti chunke...
yeh moti jo baithe the kabhi seepi mein chupke..
aane do un lehron ko, chodenege inhe yahi to kinare...
in palon mein jo bhi ho,nahi hai kuch bhi zindagi ke aage..
(3-aug-2007)
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I would interpret "kashmkash" as your undaunted acceptance of the fact w.r.t. the entire life and the various events that takes place in it, an individual seems much small and unarmed to face the various ups and downs. Life brings many situations, many of which are due to our own actions and decisions, but many are those which were, in no way, caused by us and can, in no way, be controlled by us. Many of these situations are faced well by us and, again, many leave us mutilated. But each one leaves us more strong and prepared to face the next one more boldly. Though many of these leave us praying that we never have to face similar situations again (par lagta hai darr... nahi chaahti woh shaam fir laute..leke kaali abra) but not much is in our control.
Though, many a times one is tempted to know the unknown (kaash! dekh kar aa pati main kuch pal aage..) but I found it relieving that u realize the fact that giving into such temptations is simply uljha rahin hoon main apne jeevan ke dhaage . Ending the composition on a rather positive note was quite reassuring. It was really great to see you acknowledge the fact that "nahi hai kuch bhi zindagi ke aage"
I wish I knew yr frame of mind when u wrote down this beautiful piece of verse, that would have really helped me delve much deeper and get a some more of what you wanted to say in here. But nevertheless, I could identify myself quite a lot with this "kashmkash" and would use yr own words to console you and me ... "sthaayi jab nahi hai kuch,tu kyun hai yeh kashmkash"
hey jayant,
pacifying to read ur take on "kashmakash"...probably we all go thru such situations in life. When we think "there can be nthin more worse in life than what is happening to me now"..we all believe that we r the only one to think so...hehe...how much alone one is in a crowd of like minded people even..y tht sense creeps in...ever thot???i feel coz we feel everyone else around is on a better stance thn us...remember that cliche...grass is greener on the other side...we all look life with a relative comparison...unfortunately with others...wish we could see it juxtaposing us-now to us-then and ask ourselves only.."have i added one more hair of experience??? ok..i might nt be earning more than xyz but am i earning enuff?? am i becoming a better person?? "
I dont want to start a debate "whats more imp. in life? a better human being or a better bank balance".. coz my heart says "be a good human being..hv a good education..n i'll survive with a peaceful mind n a cheerful smile" but my mind always says "but dont i deserve more..."
Will we ever get out of this "Kashmakash"...
Hey Pall,
I, just like you and like everyone else, have many a times found myself trying to count my earnings against my deservings. I have often tried to figure out what I want, how much i want, and how do I wanna get it.
After much pondering I could boil down all my 'kashmkash' to a single phrase answer viz. "I wanna be successful." Now what remains to be done is to define what 'success' means to me and then work upon this definition to achieve success. This definition of success and vary from person to person and time to time. For most of us, success means a sound bank balance. Perfectly fine!! For some others, success may mean to earn great name and fame. Still perfectly fine!! For me success means to have a life wherein I can enjoy every moment of it. A life where I have enough resources so that I can sustain myself and my dependents. A life where I have not only the resources but also the time for myself and my dearest ones. A life where I am genuinely happy - not for others to see but for myself to acknowledge. I guess even this definition of success is perfectly fine. Fine enough for me.
Applying the same theory of "being successful" (i coined the name just now) on you, I guess if you have already figured out what success means for you then gr8.. half the job is done. If not, then better define success first. This helps in two ways - firstly , it keeps you focussed, and secondly you get to enjoy your success because most of the times ppl are unhappy even after being successful because they are unable to acknowledge their own success.
Come to think of this theory of mine, then it is basically egocentric i.e. it is more to do with "what I want" and "how I want it" than "what have others got" and "how have others got it". This egocentricity is the key to contentment coz the less am I bothered abt others the more am I contented with myself.
I guess that's too much of blabbering for now. Too end it crisply I'll just wish you all the best on yr path to success
@jayant
discussing things with you, like always, had been an enriching experience..u stated things bang on target..we all want "a genuinely happy life"..but at the moment wont sell this idea..
while replying now..i thought defining success is not the most difficult part to do, but clinging to its definition for rest of the life will be "The most challenging"...but then only i contradicted myself.."toughest is to define success..with these 24x7 wavering thoughts " and once we define it...we'll have a meaninful life with lot more appreciations...we'll be able to come out of that grey patch to differentiate black n white..
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